Keeping a running list

It seems to me that I should be recording my symptoms as I go along so the next time I think getting pregnant is a good idea I can read over this and remind myself it probably isn't.

I have waited until now to start the running list because before this point even talking about my myriad of symptoms made me want to barf.

Which brings me to symptom number one:
Excessive barfing. E.X.C.E.S.S.I.V.E. Morning, afternoon, night, middle of the night. At work, in my car, at WalMart.

2. Excessive nipple pain. I have likened it to someone giving you a purple nurple while wearing a sandpaper glove. All day long. God forbid you towel dry after a shower, or wear a bra.

3. The acne of a 14 year old. My skin looks like a pizza. Disgusting.

4. Hair loss or hair breakage - I haven't figured out what is happening yet. I have all of these baby hairs at my forehead hairline. It's really weird.

5. Fatigue. This is not new to me. Having hypothyroid I have had some major fatigue before and unfortunately it's back again. I sleep 10-12 hours moist nights (see symptom 6) plus I nap when I can -weekends usually - for 1-2 hours. So sleepy

6. Trouble sleeping. Luckily this only happens sporadically. I'll wake up at 3 a.m. and not be able to sleep. I'm uncomfortable - yes all ready. My left arm seems to fall asleep and that wakes me up because it is so uncomfortable. Very frustrating to not be able to sleep when I'm so tired (see symptom 5)

7. Shortness of breath. I can't even walk up a flight of stairs without having to catch my breath. What will months 8 and 9 be like? Oh my.

8. Rapid heart rate. Happens randomly.

9. Weight gain. I know eventually this is going to really be a problem for me both mentally and physically. I am going to gain a shit-load of weight. I'm not a small person to begin with and the hypothyroid doesn't help, so the future is not looking good for me. At the same time, because I have felt so horrible I am not eating well at all. This kid is going to look like a french fry when it gets out here.

10. Depression/Apathy - Is it possible to have "pre-partum" depression? Pre-baby blues? I've got some non pregnancy related problems going on which have either happened at a bad time or a good time I haven't decided yet. But these issues are somewhat overshadowing the pregnancy. Plus feeling horrible all the time (see symptoms 1 thru 9) doesn't help brighten my mood.
The apathy thing is weird for me. I would have thought I would be freaking out - excited or worried, or planning crazy, but I'm not. I'm not really thinking about the baby, or what we need or need to do. I'm just numbly getting through each day. I think/hope once I look pregnant and thse issues slowly erase, that will change.

I'll stop there for now.

This blog is so positive and upbeat isn't it? haha!

"I don't feel well"

Not a day has gone by in the last 13 weeks and 5 days that I haven't whined those words.
I can't wait until this is over.

baby's first official photo shoot

Had our first official ultrasound today. Baby Young appeared to be very photogenic and had a strong heartbeat. He waved his hands, kicked his feet and did some reverse ab crunches for his mommy and daddy. By far the most (the only) rewarding part of this whole experience so far.

Lazy Saturday

Well to be honest every day lately is lazy. I just don't have a lot of energy, but I think things might be looking up. I haven't thrown up in 6 days. I think that's some serious progress.

So far today, I've taken the dogs out for a nice hour long walk, changed and washed the bedding and am currently doing more laundry. Norm is out for a bike ride and eventually we plan to go to Babies'R'Us to start learning about strollers and then Costco. If I manage to accomplish all of that, I think this will be a very successful day.

We're going for our first real ultrasound on Tuesday. I'm anxious. I just want Tuesday to get here all ready. I think I'll feel much better when I see the Little Fucker again. Hello? Is anyone in there??

Wish us luck at Babies'R'Us. I think we're probably going to need to sit in a quiet dark room when we get outta there. Overload. Not to mention some strollers cost more than my car.

Great day!

Gasp! I didn't throw up today! YIPPIE!!! Day is not over yet, but so far so good. Isn't it funny that is how I distinguish a good day from a bad one now?

Husband is away on a"business" trip (yah right!) so it's just me and the Beagles tonight.
Fingers crossed that tomorrow goes as well as today.

Far from it

Norm told his friends yesterday about the kid. Everyone of course was happy and had lots of questions to ask, but the best was from his friend Mark.

Mark and his wife have a daughter. Mark asked Norm how my "hormones" were - a loaded question, but whatever.

He said "Is she euphoric?" Apparently his wife was euphoric throughout her entire pregnancy. Bless her!

Norm just about shot beer out of his nose. The truth is, I am about as far from euphoric that I could get. I don't think I've ever been euphoric in my life. That's a big emotion. Not many people can pull it off.

You're all a bunch of liers!

Why is it now that I'm pregnant people are telling me how horrible pregnancy really is?
Funny, no one mentioned it before... grrrr!

I just spoke to my oldest friend Rachel and told her what a hard time I've been having and she said "oh I know didn't I tell you how awful it is?" Ummm NO! I distinctly remember her telling me she was tired. Tired, well I can handle that! Now that the truth has come out, it turns out she was tired from BARFING 24/7! Funny... you never mentioned that...!

Can't wait until people start tell me the horrors of child birth.

Photogenic

I realize I haven't posted any photos of George and Molly yet!

I got some cute ones today of them outside. Molly loves spring. It was a very warm day today and she took advantage of it. George really isn't a huge fan of the outdoors but he does enjoy laying in the sun for a while.

I can't resist posting another cute one of George.

Blunders

I can't cook. Thank God Norm can. Very well.

I thought I could bake, but lately every time I try, I fail. Miserably.

For example I received my March edition of Canadian Living - yes, I am old - and inside was this simple, delicious looking recipe.

So, I thought I give it a try. Simple. Five ingredients. What could go wrong?

Well I'm still not sure exactly what went wrong, but here is how mine looked.

Does this look even remotely the same to you? It didn't taste that bad, but it certainly didn't look good . Unfortunately another failure in the kitchen for me. I'm hanging up my wooden spoon for a while. It's just a waste of good ingredients.

Cat's in the bag, and outta the bag

So it's been a busy week. We made a road trip to see my family on Sunday and told them our exciting news, then Tuesday we went to the OBGYN for the first time - more on that later - then had my in-laws over Tuesday night to share with them. The mother's squealed, the fathers didn't ask any awkward questions, so I guess we couldn't ask for more. We are trying to wait until the 12 week mark to tell friends and work, but we'll see how that goes.

Back to the OB appointment. I was nervous because I'd read some not-so-great-reviews online about the doctor, but he seems fine to me. I don't need a best friend, I need someone to pull a screaming (I hope) kid out of my crotch. He seemed capable. Nuff said.

The exciting part was that he did a basic ultrasound so we got to see the little pea!
Good news is, it's in there, bad news is it's still making me sick. Not as sick as before, but sick nonetheless. Doc said everything looks normal. He said he thought I was 9 weeks and 3 days, while I thought I was 10 weeks and 1 day. I'm sticking with mine. He's a doctor yes, but what does he know? So we have a real ultrasound on March 23 and go back to the doctor on March 30.

On a side note; I am looking forward to posting some more pictures. I don't think a blog is good if it's too wordy. Right now though the only picture that would reflect what is happening would be me leaning over the toilet. And that's not something the internet needs to see.

Things are looking up

I didn't throw up this morning. That's big.

I'm hoping this positive trend continues. Found out yesterday my mom threw up for the first six months. But only when pregnant with girls. No throwing up with the boys. Super. My Grannie threw up with both, so I guess there is no consistency there.

We go meet our OBGYN tomorrow. Hopefully we can hear the heart beat so this "thing" becomes a little more real. Not too sure how the appointment will go. I've heard and read some not-so-positive things about this guy. I just hope he has small hands.