Keeping a running list

It seems to me that I should be recording my symptoms as I go along so the next time I think getting pregnant is a good idea I can read over this and remind myself it probably isn't.

I have waited until now to start the running list because before this point even talking about my myriad of symptoms made me want to barf.

Which brings me to symptom number one:
Excessive barfing. E.X.C.E.S.S.I.V.E. Morning, afternoon, night, middle of the night. At work, in my car, at WalMart.

2. Excessive nipple pain. I have likened it to someone giving you a purple nurple while wearing a sandpaper glove. All day long. God forbid you towel dry after a shower, or wear a bra.

3. The acne of a 14 year old. My skin looks like a pizza. Disgusting.

4. Hair loss or hair breakage - I haven't figured out what is happening yet. I have all of these baby hairs at my forehead hairline. It's really weird.

5. Fatigue. This is not new to me. Having hypothyroid I have had some major fatigue before and unfortunately it's back again. I sleep 10-12 hours moist nights (see symptom 6) plus I nap when I can -weekends usually - for 1-2 hours. So sleepy

6. Trouble sleeping. Luckily this only happens sporadically. I'll wake up at 3 a.m. and not be able to sleep. I'm uncomfortable - yes all ready. My left arm seems to fall asleep and that wakes me up because it is so uncomfortable. Very frustrating to not be able to sleep when I'm so tired (see symptom 5)

7. Shortness of breath. I can't even walk up a flight of stairs without having to catch my breath. What will months 8 and 9 be like? Oh my.

8. Rapid heart rate. Happens randomly.

9. Weight gain. I know eventually this is going to really be a problem for me both mentally and physically. I am going to gain a shit-load of weight. I'm not a small person to begin with and the hypothyroid doesn't help, so the future is not looking good for me. At the same time, because I have felt so horrible I am not eating well at all. This kid is going to look like a french fry when it gets out here.

10. Depression/Apathy - Is it possible to have "pre-partum" depression? Pre-baby blues? I've got some non pregnancy related problems going on which have either happened at a bad time or a good time I haven't decided yet. But these issues are somewhat overshadowing the pregnancy. Plus feeling horrible all the time (see symptoms 1 thru 9) doesn't help brighten my mood.
The apathy thing is weird for me. I would have thought I would be freaking out - excited or worried, or planning crazy, but I'm not. I'm not really thinking about the baby, or what we need or need to do. I'm just numbly getting through each day. I think/hope once I look pregnant and thse issues slowly erase, that will change.

I'll stop there for now.

This blog is so positive and upbeat isn't it? haha!