Everyone says the worst part about motherhood is the guilt. You always feel guilty - you can't spend enough time with them, you can't give them everything they want, you can't protect them from everything all the time.
I all ready feel guilty.
I know there are lots of things I could/should be doing to prepare for baby, but I just don't feel like doing them, or I don't know where to start. Weekends are the worst. I should be doing something. I should be doing more. But what? I really don't know.
On top of that it seems like daily I am finding out things that I should not be doing, which I have been doing for the past 4.5 months. I'm failing at motherhood and I haven't even really started yet. How is that possible??
Guilt for me is not new. I tend to feel guilty about lots of things on a regular basis, so this baby is only going to heighten my all ready large neurosis. Yep, I've got problems and they're only going to get worse. Thanks a lot baby.
The only thing keeping me going is that those girls on 16 and Pregnant seem to be decent mothers, so I can't possibly fail. Can I?
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