7 more sleeps

until we never sleep again because we're going to have another one of these!

Okay, so who thought this was a good idea? Now I am really starting to freak out. The thought of....everything... is causing me to break into a sweat. I am not looking forward to the c-section. Yes, I have done it before, but I had no time to think about it that time. I really don't remember much about the recovery except the infection part, but I'm hoping to avoid that this time around. I DO remember saying to myself once the infection was cleared up, that the c-section wasn't as bad as I thought it could have been. So that's good right? I am scared that Lauren is going to react badly to having a new baby around. Turn into a tantrum-throwing-monster. I am scared I am going to be a horrible mother to Lauren or to the new baby or to both especially at the beginning when I'm healing and trying to remember how to survive on no sleep and look after a newborn.... and a toddler.

We can do this right?